why i so much hated the sun

as the cold breeze touches its hands on my face,
i reminisce the days that you never let me feel alone
but like the sun although had given warmth through its rays,
still will set, and left you missing the brightness it had shown

you taught me how to deal with the hardships of life,
telling me always that whatever happens, together we will fight
but now you're gone and no matter how much i strive,
like the sun after the sunset you remained out of my sight

you have assured me that you'll never cause me any pain
that you would still be with me even after a cold heavy storm
yet why time had to come that you need to leave me insane
craving for your caress and wanting you more than before

after giving me unbearable heartaches i've learned to hate you
aside from killing all my hopes, you made me believe all the lies of you
yet i thank you still for letting me mingle alone with the dark
for i met my moon who is willing to embrace me through the night

a tinge of sorrow in me.

sometimes we don't have other choice but to accept the fact that everything had already changed. you may not want it but there's nothing else to do. worst is when your love one had changed so bad that it pricks your heart. we always wanted so hard to bring back the times were everything are still doing fine, to flashback the days that you are still with the ones you love hugging you tight and holding your hands as if they never wanted to let it go. we are always missing the memories of hearty laughs and good times spent with our good friends. but all of them are over. they may be just beside you but they aren't the same like before. it hurts me most when the stuffs we usually do together are being done with somebody else. it sucks knowing thay you have been replaced by someone better. we just regret doing things we shouldn't have done. how i wish i could turn back time and straight up all the crooked path i once took.